Syakirah Syamimi's Official Blog: #BeStrongYoochun

Wednesday, 14th March 2012... That day I was preparing for my Economy final paper. As the plug in my room didn't work that day, I couldn't surf the internet quite freely & when I finally able to went online, a bad news hit me... I almost couldn't believe my eyes when the headline said "JYJ's Yoochun's father passed away". At that moment, the only hing that cross my mind was that week was not a good week for my beloved DBSK/JYJ members as earlier that week, Changmin's grandmother also passed away. What make me more heartbroken when the news reported that at that moment, Yoochun was still not aware of his father's death as he was on flight to Korea after finishing JYJ concert tour in South America. I was very nervous for his arrival; worried about how he will react to the news. A true Cassiopeia would know that among 5 DBSK members, Yoochun is the crybaby of the group; the one that is easily affected by things happened around him. The was one period of time when he is very depressed & it effect all of the members as well. But at that time, he still have his 4 brothers with him, but now only 2 of them will accompany him through this difficult part of his life.
Today, what I fear come to reality. Yoochun is badly affected by his father's death. Korean media had reported that he had not eat anything for two days & just keep himself locked in the mourning hall together with his brother & mother. I get to see the picture of him during the funeral & what I see broke my heart into pieces. The sweet smiling Yoochun that I know is gone and he looked really fragile and weak. His brother, Yoohwan is not any better. Yoohwan had collapse during the funeral and I'm sure that Yoochun is on the verge of a break down. Even the other two JYJ members, Jaejoong & Junsu who had been together with Yoochun for two days, mourning his father's death had not been well. Jaejoong was absent from the funeral today because of exhaustion, leaving Junsu alone to be by his best friend's side. Jaejoong had been crying and not eating for days while accompanying Yoochun and his family.
What make me cried my eyes out that the presence of Changmin & Yunho were nowhere to be seen. Neither did any representative of SM Entertainment. After being together for so long, how could they become so selfish and letting their pride stand on their way of showing some comfort for the person that they once called their friend? I know that maybe SME did interfere in not letting Yunho & Changmin come to the funeral, but didn't they both grown up men that can decide their own action? At this time, I'm really disappointed with both Yunho & Changmin even that is not entirely their fault. If only Yunho was around with his brothers, Jaejoong wouldn't be so exhausted. It's true Jaejoong is the oldest, but at this difficult time, they need their leader by their side. And every Cassiopeia know that Changmin's presence really means something to Yoochun.
Even if they're are not in the same band anymore, didn't their years of friendship means anyhing to them? I keep asking myself the same question; is it really the end for DBSK? Not the duo DBSK, but DBSK that consist of 5 people that I love with all my heart. Until now, I still don't know the answer for that question. All that I hope is that one day, I will be able to see all 5 of them standing on the same stage, singing the same song and called by the same name. Even if I'm disappointed with Yunho & Changmin, I still gonna give my full support to them because that what a true Cassiopeia will do. For Yoochun, please be strong because you have a lot of people who love you. Jaejoong & Junsu, thank you for being with Yoochun during his hardest moment.