I love you too, mummy < 3

At 7 pm just now, my mom called me; asking whether I had find a friend to accompany me on my way back to Shah Alam later next week. When I said I haven't, she started to telling me to find one soon because she worry about me getting on the bus all alone. Then I said that I used to do so & more comfortable of doing that, she said that attitude of me being okay to be alone is the only thing that she find wrong in me. She wish that I would stop being so undependable and start to having used to have people around me when I go somewhere else. The thing is, I don't want to be a person who's being a burden to someone else. If I think that I can do the thing all by myself, I'll just do it. No need to trouble someone else. For instance, when I went to buy ticket to go back to Kelantan and then I stopped by SACC Mall to by books for my brother all by myself; I don't think it's necessary for me to trouble my friends to accompany me as that is my personal matters and has nothing to do with them. That's just the way I'm thinking. Not that I don't appreciate the times I had wit my friends; but I just love spending time on my own. I just hope that my mom would understand that.

But the thing is, when she said that that attitude of mine is the only thing she do not like in me; somehow I feel very happy. Her exact word is "Along, along xde kurang apa2 dah kecuali sikap along yang satu tu." Her words make me think that I actually is a good daughter to her. All of this time, I often wondered whether I was a good daughter to her. I always trying to be one, but the feeling of being a disappointment to my parents had always been lingering in my head. I was not able to give them a good result during my SPM period nor that I always listen to what the said without arguing. To add the fact that my little sister is better than me just make me feel more inferior. I am the eldest, I should have been a good examples to my sister and brothers but something, the job is just too hard. I often tried too hard to be the best so that they would be proud to call me their sister and daughter but I often felt that I had failed the job. My mom words earlier today make me finally feel that they are always proud of me even though sometimes me myself did not feel so. My mom never realize that her short words; although it meant to nag me, had left such a deep effect in myself. It's true when people said that family is the one that can make you cry and laugh at the same moment. To umi and abah, just want to say that ALONG SAYANG SANGAT UMI DAN ABAH!

100% MBLAQ...

to tell u the truth i've known MBLAQ for years....i mean who wouldn't know them, right??? they're Rain's mentee & to be honest they really good looking too, *fangirling here* but only recently that i really into them... am i turning into a hardcore A+???? isn't it enough being hardcore Cassiopeia, ELF & Inspirit??? *sigh* me and my fangirl hormones... to be honest there was a moment when i really like joon...and i always found mir adorable...then when i watch sesame player last year, it was the leader seungho that mess with my bias list...but it never become serious like this when i had to watch their video for the whole day!!!! and next week they gonna release MBLAQ HELLO BABY!!!! i cant wait to watch seungho, g.o, joon, cheondoong & mir become dads...those baby girls are lucky...can't believe i'm being jealous towards kids T_T

their new album :)

joonnie oppa~ u can shoot me anytime^^

mir oppa looks so hot here, right???

arghh!!! i die :D

i really thank God^^

MUET result just got out & thank you Allah for answering to my prayers^^
 I got band 4 and really happy with it. :)
Right after knowing the result, I called my mom even though it's already midnight and she must be sleeping already; but I can't stop myself. She is the first person that I want to share this news with. ( actually, the first person who know my result was Tiqah, my roommate. She was right next to me when I got the result)
While talking to her, my tears just falling down without I realize it. I never know how much I mean to me to make umi happy & proud with me. I once disappoint her with my SPM result & I was really scared that it will happen again. Thank you God for making me be able to make umi & abah happy^^

A day to start anew^^

Today is the start of 2nd semester of my study & I have a mixed feeling whether I should be happy or not...sure, I really like to meet my old as well as new friends, I miss my home too :(
This morning, I went back to Cempaka and had only one class in the morning, 2 evening classes are cancelled so I have a free time. Even though it is only the first day to start class, it already give me chills, I already figured that Economy will be a difficult subject, but I don't expect it to be that difficult. My lecturer, Madam Rahana didn't teach yet, all she did was telling us the overview on the subject & what will she expect from us, but I couldn't help to feel scared...All I hope is that I can cope with the new subjects & be able to maintain the good results that I get last semester....

books that I enjoy to read~

It's been a while since I wrote anything...& I suddenly had this urge to share about a few books that I really enjoy to read...All of the books are from the Bridgerton series by a very talented author, Julia Quinn. All of the books in Bridgerton series are about love stories of 8 siblings who are called Anthony, Benedict, Colin, Daphne, Eloise, Francessca, Gregory & Hyacinth ( the name started in alphabical order. )

I first known the Bridgerton family through the last book of the series, On The Way to The Wedding which tells the story of Gregory Bridgerton & Lucinda Abernathy. After that I was quickly charmed by Julia Quinn's style of writing and thus introduced me to the rest of the Bridgerton family.

If I were to choose which one of the 8 books was my favourite, it is a hard decision but I find myself to love Romancing Mr Bridgerton featuring Colin Bridgerton & Penelope Featherington. It is amazed to know that someone we know since we were little can be the one we search to spent the rest of our life with. That is exactly what happened to Colin when he fall in love with Penelope whom he knew for a long time.

I also love the 7th book, It's In His Kiss featuring Hyacinth Bridgerton & Gareth St. Clair. The relationship between those two is interesting to read especially with Hyacith's characters. Not to forget Gareth's grandmother, the infamous Lady Danbury.

Therefore one must simply read these books to fall in love with the Bridgerton family. ^^

h@ppy b'd@y 2 me~

i'm finally 18!!!!
sweet eighteen birthday to me <3
oh, happy b'day to my East Sea fish Lee Donghae oppa as well~
hugs & kisses to those who had wished me happy b'day earlier...

wHat's up, woRLd???

The last night in Shah Alam before I'm flying back home <33333333
So many things happen this past few months, and I'm glad that I was able to survive those things.
Tomorrow is the last paper, LAW 012...I know I should be studying instead of typing this but it is hard to ignore the need to tell what I'm feeling right now.

Erm...let see, what should I talk about first????
So many things happen today...some are good & some are bad.
This night I went to DC to buy something to eat & I decided to just have a burger.I went down from my room around 7.30 p.m. and when arrived there was still not many people around. I thought that my order will arrived quickly. Guess what happened instead??? I had to wait for almost an hour before I get my order. Even my friends who arrived later than I am got their order first. :(   Turned out that the 'abang burger' mistakenly write my order. Can you imagine how frustated I am at that time????

Enough of the bad memory, now a good one...
I just add Jang Geun Suk on Facebook!!!
I can't believe he just made a facebook page, I mean it's rare to find a Korean celebrity who has a facebook page.
I even sent him a private message, do you think he will reply it??? It would be so great if he do so. :)

Have you guys heard INFINITE's new song called Paradise???
I really hooked to it right now~
And I'm supposed to be bias of Sungjong, why I suddenly think that L is so awesome????
Arghhh...me & my fangirl mode~
Check out the song and tell me what you think.
'Till then, good night & sweet dreams, world <3