INJUSTICE TO JUNSU T_T

DAMN YOU, SBS!!!!!!

I'm so mad right now, that I don't really care what I will wrote!!! For those who do not know yet, today, our  KIM XIAH JUNSU  had been treated UNFAIRLY by so-called broadcasting company SBS!!!!! SBS had invited our JUNSU OPPA to a gig, but it was never broadcast as when the time arrived for him to perform, the staffs packed the cameras and ENDS the recording!!!!! Instead of getting pissed, our JUNSU OPPA STILL performed at the gig and THANKED them for being able to perform!!!!!

SERIOUSLY, WHAT HAVE HE EVER DONE TO YOU, SBS???????

DON'T YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE ANGERED WORLD'S LARGEST FANDOM BY DOING SO??????

And later, JUNSU OPPA even tweet that it doesn't matter if his performances didn't get to be broadcast as he is happy to just be able to perform in front of his fan T_T...I'm tearing up at this...our JUNSU OPPA is so nice, but CASSIOPEIA is not someone who you can take lightly..We promise that we'll protect the boys and we'll stick to that promise no matter what..

SBS, YOU HAVE DONE YOUR WORST MISTAKE!!!!

I'LL BE WAITING FOR THE TIME WHEN YOU'LL BE BEGGING XIAHJUNSU, YOUNGWOONGJAEJOONG & MICKYYOOCHUN TO COME TO YOUR SHOWS & I HOPE THEY'LL SAY NO!!!

YOU'LL GET YOUR KARMA, SOON..

LET US SHOW YOU THE POWER OF RED OCEAN!!!!!

JUNSU OPPA, @1215thexiahtic, 오빠 힘내!! 카시오페이아는 항상 너와 함께있을 것이다..

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my poor junsu
Junsu's injustice
junsu's twitter update

crying like hell...again

Don't know what has gotten into me lately, but I find myself constantly in my Cassiopeia's mode and it refused to be turned off!!!! I've been watching the old videos when they are still 5, reading tons of fan fictions about them;mostly aktf genres, watching their pictures, posting their quotes on facebook & twitter, listening to their songs....and after that, I always find myself in the exact same state over and over again; that is crying myself to death T_T

It seems that I've been really tired with this waiting....sometimes I even wonder whether this worth all the the tears that I've shed...are they really worth my heart????? And then whenever, I looked back at them, my heart keep saying the same thing all over again; they are worth every ounce of time of my life...

Today, I just discover a fact that make my heart broke into pieces...I never knew that JYJ's and HoMin's had a different fandom names other than Cassiopeia....sure, it will be ignorant of me to say that I didn't know that there is a fan war going on within Cassiopeia family...but surely to call yourself as Orion (for JYJ) and Holy Shinkis (for HoMin); aren't you ashamed of yourself???? We promised ourselves that we'll protect all 5 of them no matter what...We promise that whenever they feel tired or wanting to quit, all they have to do is just look at the sky & search for the W shape, and then they'll find home...Where all those promise gone???? What do you think our oppas will feel???? Do you think they will be happy & celebrate the fact that we have turned against each others???

And now I am watching the Balloon performances that HoMin did with SHINee...That song is such a happy song, and if this 'collaboration' happen during those happy old times, I'll be grinning from ear to ear... but instead of smiling, I find myself crying again T_T Please take note that I didn't hate SHINee; in fact I love them (am a Shawol myself; although Cassiopeia gene is more in my blood), but seriously?????? Do you think that by replacing Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu with Key, Minho, Taemin and Onew (I don't know why Jonghyun was absent) will make Yunho and Changmin forget about their brothers????? I don't know what are you thinking, SME..I really don't know...

I should really stop right now...If I keep going, I don't know how much more tears will I shed....Just so you know, as long as the 5 of them are under the same sky, I'll Always Keep The Faith..

'As so you do. Our faith will be stronger.'

                  - @mjjeje (Kim Jaejoong) -

turning point of my life....

tomorrow will be the new starting point of my life..i'm no longer so-called 'penanam anggur' as tomorrow i will start the new chapter of my life a a TESL student at UKM...before getting into law foundation last year, that was my dream; to be able to become a TESL student...when i'm am accepted into law foundation at UiTM, i thought that that was just a dream and i started changing my course of direction as a law students instead..but turns out that God had something else in His mind...still, i think that i had made the right choice of accepting the offer to become a TESL student..i'll just let the God to show me the best way for me from now on....

the end of asasi life T_T

Time really went fast when we enjoy ourselves, isn't it??? I feel that it just yesterday when I first came to UiTM to start my life as a law foundation student & whalla, it's the end already T_T... Really gonna miss my classmates who are the reason why my life here become so colorful & sparkling^^ You guys are one in a million & it'll be hard for me to find friends like you guys...Thanks a lot for being so sporting & accepting me for who I am...We had lots of happy memories together and I'll always cherish the moments when we have each other on our back. I don't want to write much because I fear that I'll be crying soon, but just know that I'll miss you a lot. :)

Not to forget dear roommates, Leeya, Tqah & Linda...you girls are the best!!! I'll always remember the crazy time that we spend together in the room 1A-00-40, Kolej Mawar...Thanks for being you ^^

LAW FACULTY OF UiTM SHAH ALAM, THANK YOU FOR BRINGING WONDERFUL MEMORIES TO ME^^ UiTM DI HATIKU, ALWAYS...

#BeStrongYoochun

Wednesday, 14th March 2012... That day I was preparing for my Economy final paper. As the plug in my room didn't work that day, I couldn't surf the internet quite freely & when I finally able to went online, a bad news hit me...  I almost couldn't believe my eyes when the headline said "JYJ's Yoochun's father passed away". At that moment, the only hing that cross my mind was that week was not a good week for my beloved DBSK/JYJ members as earlier that week, Changmin's grandmother also passed away. What make me more heartbroken when the news reported that at that moment, Yoochun was still not aware of his father's death as he was on flight  to Korea after finishing JYJ concert tour in South America. I was very nervous for his arrival; worried about how he will react to the news. A true Cassiopeia would know that among 5 DBSK members, Yoochun is the crybaby of the group; the one that is easily affected by things happened around him. The was one period of time when he is very depressed & it effect all of the members as well. But at that time, he still have his 4 brothers with him, but now only 2 of them will accompany him through this difficult part of his life.
Today, what I fear come to reality. Yoochun is badly affected by his father's death. Korean media had reported that he had not eat anything for two days & just keep himself locked in the mourning hall together with his brother & mother. I get to see the picture of him during the funeral & what I see broke my heart into pieces. The sweet smiling Yoochun that I know is gone and he looked really fragile and weak. His brother, Yoohwan is not any better. Yoohwan had collapse during the funeral and I'm sure that Yoochun is on the verge of a break down. Even the other two JYJ members, Jaejoong & Junsu who had been together with Yoochun for two days, mourning his father's death had not been well. Jaejoong was absent from the funeral today because of exhaustion, leaving Junsu alone to be by his best friend's side. Jaejoong had been crying and not eating for days while accompanying Yoochun and his family.
What make me cried my eyes out that the presence of Changmin & Yunho were nowhere to be seen. Neither did any representative of SM Entertainment. After being together for so long, how could they become so selfish and letting their pride stand on their way of showing some comfort for the person that they once called their friend? I know that maybe SME did interfere in not letting Yunho & Changmin come to the funeral, but didn't they both grown up men that can decide their own action? At this time, I'm really disappointed with both Yunho & Changmin even that is not entirely their fault. If only Yunho was around with his brothers, Jaejoong wouldn't be so exhausted. It's true Jaejoong is the oldest, but at this difficult time, they need their leader by their side. And every Cassiopeia know that Changmin's presence really means something to Yoochun.
Even if they're are not in the same band anymore, didn't their years of friendship means anyhing to them? I keep asking myself the same question; is it really the end for DBSK? Not the duo DBSK, but DBSK that consist of 5 people that I love with all my heart. Until now, I still don't know the answer for that question. All that I hope is that one day, I will be able to see all 5 of them standing on the same stage, singing the same song and called by the same name. Even if I'm disappointed with Yunho & Changmin, I still gonna give my full support to them because that what a true Cassiopeia will do. For Yoochun, please be strong because you have a lot of people who love you. Jaejoong & Junsu, thank you for being with Yoochun during his hardest moment.

The time when they still there for each other... I hope that time will happen again

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entri pertama dalam bahasa melayu!!!!!
sedar x sedar asasi dah nak sampai ke penghujungnya.... sepanjang 2 semester aku kat uitm ni, macam2 perkara dah aku lalui; ada yang pahit & ada jugak yang manis...yang penting semua tu akan jadi kenangan dalam sejarah hidup aku...ingat lagi waktu first2 dpt tawaran masuk sini, mentah2 aku nak tolak. niat hati nak pergi matrikulasi johor sebab kat situ budak2 V5 berlambak berkumpul. My besties Nana & Epah pun dok situ, lagi la aku berat hati nak datang sini... tapi umi & abah yang paksa suruh datang sini...Alhamdulillah, memang kalau kita ikut kata parents ni banyak kebaikannya...dulu aku memang x nak tau apa2 pun pasal benda law ni, tapi sekarang dah tau yang law ni sebenarnya sngt seronok... aku siap boleh aplikasikan artikel2 dalam FC tu msk ckp ngan umi hari tu :)

classmates yang sangat sempoi antara reason uitm jadi sngat menyeronokkan untuk aku.... aku dapat kenal orang2 yang datang dari seluruh pelusuk dunia... paling best, disebabkan kelas sir alfred, almost dapat hafal kampung halaman budak2 ni...haha, aku xkan boleh lupa lecturer sorang tu sampai aku mati kot^^ not to mention madam nazida yang sangat sempoi, sir izuan yang handsome^^, madam ilyana, madam rafidah, madam huda, sir raj, sir rajendra & semua lecturer2 yang ajar aku dari sem 1 sampai sekarang...

Insyaallah, aku xkan lupa pengalaman aku dekat sini sampai bila2...kalau Allah izinkan memang aku niat nak sambung ambil degree law, tapi aku xkan jadi lawyer. Semoga apa yang aku belajar kat sini mampu menjadikan aku lebih cemerlang in the future^^

LWA02D calssmates^^

I love you too, mummy < 3

At 7 pm just now, my mom called me; asking whether I had find a friend to accompany me on my way back to Shah Alam later next week. When I said I haven't, she started to telling me to find one soon because she worry about me getting on the bus all alone. Then I said that I used to do so & more comfortable of doing that, she said that attitude of me being okay to be alone is the only thing that she find wrong in me. She wish that I would stop being so undependable and start to having used to have people around me when I go somewhere else. The thing is, I don't want to be a person who's being a burden to someone else. If I think that I can do the thing all by myself, I'll just do it. No need to trouble someone else. For instance, when I went to buy ticket to go back to Kelantan and then I stopped by SACC Mall to by books for my brother all by myself; I don't think it's necessary for me to trouble my friends to accompany me as that is my personal matters and has nothing to do with them. That's just the way I'm thinking. Not that I don't appreciate the times I had wit my friends; but I just love spending time on my own. I just hope that my mom would understand that.

But the thing is, when she said that that attitude of mine is the only thing she do not like in me; somehow I feel very happy. Her exact word is "Along, along xde kurang apa2 dah kecuali sikap along yang satu tu." Her words make me think that I actually is a good daughter to her. All of this time, I often wondered whether I was a good daughter to her. I always trying to be one, but the feeling of being a disappointment to my parents had always been lingering in my head. I was not able to give them a good result during my SPM period nor that I always listen to what the said without arguing. To add the fact that my little sister is better than me just make me feel more inferior. I am the eldest, I should have been a good examples to my sister and brothers but something, the job is just too hard. I often tried too hard to be the best so that they would be proud to call me their sister and daughter but I often felt that I had failed the job. My mom words earlier today make me finally feel that they are always proud of me even though sometimes me myself did not feel so. My mom never realize that her short words; although it meant to nag me, had left such a deep effect in myself. It's true when people said that family is the one that can make you cry and laugh at the same moment. To umi and abah, just want to say that ALONG SAYANG SANGAT UMI DAN ABAH!